still some rocks in my socks

I've obviously had to call upon time travel i order to keep everyone up to date. Technically I should be writing about our first night arriving in Boston (which was tonight). About how we love our apt but have to dedicate our entire day tomorrow to cleaning the damn thing since it's previous inhabitant is in law school and I guess has not had the time to do so. But first, I must go back to our last few days in Denver. The last few days in Denver consisted of lots of hugs, packing, promises of keeping in touch, toasts of last drinks, financial planning, tearful goodbyes and saying "see you later" to people that we then, never actually did have the pleasure of saying goodbye to. Monday night Betty invited the neighbors and some of our work friends to a beautiful patio dinner. We all ate well and had a marvelous time. We called it an early night for Rachel and I had to get some sleep if we wanted to be ready to go at 8am the next morning so that we could make it to St. Louis by nightfall. We were able to have a private goodbye to Betty and Beau that morning. They were the only ones that could pull tears out of our eyes. It was so hard to back out of the long driveway watching the two of them standing there and watching us leave. I couldn't help but be especially sad knowing that poor Beau couldn't have understood when as the day past, we never came back. Betty said the left for the day and when he came back the first thing he did was run into our rooms to see if we were there. Obviously, we were not. I hope in my heart he knows I love him and that I'll see him again one day and that i'm looking forward to that visit. I really feel that he was my dog for three months. He was one of my best friends there. Everyone who knows me well knows how much I loved dogs. Well, I really bonded with this one. Our last night in Denver he and Ridely (the jack russel next door) slept in our bed with us. Saying goodye to Betty was just as hard. She had become our family. Waking up in the morning now without her there sends a feeling of loss and missing through my gut. I wish I had taken less naps and spent more time with Betty while Rachel was at work. Saying goodbye to Denver was extremely difficult. We had never imagined we could get so attached to somewhere you only lived at for three and a half months. We became attached to Betty, Beau, the house, the neighbors, Ridely, the mountains, our jobs, our friends, our neighborhood, or mountains....these things we didn't know before now helped define us in the morning as we woke. On Tuesday hugged tight, got in our cars, and it was all gone. We certainly had excitement up ahead but there was still the cloud over our car reminding us of everything we were leaving behind. When we originally left new york it was because we felt stuck. Same thing after same thing but never going anywhere. Our reasons for leaving Denver was simply because it was part of the plan, We're travelers. Explorers. Discovering pioneers. We can't stop now just because we found somewhere that makes us happy. And who knows...maybe it only made us so happy because we knew we were leaving. We weren't stuck there so why be afraid of it? I'm excited that we left Denver but it was very very hard. We really did have an amazing time. We met amazing people and we had a much harder time saying goodye than I thought we would. But we did it. We left. How I figure it....I have such a better and bigger heart after Denver because of all the amazing people and things I had to fit inside. Boston will do the same thing. No one's place will ever be taken, but new places will form and I will die with the worlds biggest heart. Because of all I allowed to take in and then go find even more great things to take it. I can't imagine not knowing the people I became close with in Denver. There must be people here that I'm going to meet and i'll think "I can't imagine my life without your presence. " No one will ever be lost or replaced. My heart will continue to grow on my adventure as I let more and more people in. So we've arrived in Boston tonight. Our apartment is great however its dirty and we have to clean the whole thing tomorrow and its not air conditioned. Not big deals. We will clean and live within five feet of our big fan at all times. We're very excited and we're thrilled that we get to act like we're married once again! more tomrrow and some pictures if your lucky -lj